randomness

u jz feel like crap...
u feel lk shit n unwanted n unloved (even tho off hand u can name quite a few ppl who love u)
these r days when u feel like punching sum1 or urself or hittin the world or jz drowning urself...
ahhh....
ppl r jz so tiring sumtimes...i wanna be w ppl who i can click w...who i dun hv to try so hard..i feel so tired la....
i wan2 be free...i wan2 break free...
ah....kim ong...everfree...
freedom fr tryin so hard..freedom fr bein w ppl who u jz pretend 2b fun w or in comparison w all d other ppl,u prefer hangin out w dem...
i wan2 go home la.....i tink mayb im jz home sick...
ah....i feel lk punchin sum1..or kissin sum1.
my tots r so jumbled up...i wan2 tk sum1 in my arms n cry n cry n cry...
n complain...n i duno la.i duno,i duno,i wan ian....
wat's wrong w me...he's jz sum random,nerdy...im mad la.
desperation breeds destruction.y cant i grow up n post bout othr stuff...
evrytin;s bout guys.evry post is cuz i hv issues w dis guy or dat..im a pot la.
i miss so so many ppl dat i use 2b damn close w.i mis my old lfe..
WAT AM I DOIN HERE???i m tired.im so tired.cant tk it.nd 2release my emotions.ah.........................feel lk pullin out my hair.
gimme an oar
gimme freedomlet me run barefoot among the lilies.
or jz place me in a field of lilies
let me b who i am
let me speak my mind
let snow fall in my roomlet rain drench me n nt fall ill
fill my heart w pink candy floss
shower me w ur love
let it rain gumdrop kisses cover the ground w clouds,
walk n pretend im in heaven
gimme life in a bowl of guppies
let me sit n stare 4eva n eva n eva
gimme life n let it feel real
let it be like wat i dream of.