Saturday, November 01, 2008

payback time.

do we hv a rite to dish out judgement? does any1 of us hv d rite? i mean,wt if it's RILY a deserving judgement?does dat count?

i gues revenge is sweet...i mean,it's RARELY a person hs d opportunity2punish sum1 for wat dey did2u...it almost always NEVER happens.so if u get a chance lk dat,

wat do u do????

if u're a gal,u NOE wt i mean... d tears,d pain,d wishing n praying dat 1 day,oh pls pls pls,dat 1 day in the future,dat bastard wil get a taste of his own medicine.dat he'll feel 100x wat u felt.wat he deserves.

n when dat day comes (which supposedly NEVA does) u'll b d one laughing n makin him grovel....a beautiful fantasy,i noe.n we all end up movin on fr d hurt n letting go of that fantasy.

bt wat happens if dat opportunity presented itself 1day?????????

WUD U tk it? wat's d rite thing to do? tk 1 down for ALL of womankind out ther,or hv compassion on the poor bastard who ws stupid enuf2tink dat he'd b able to try2screw with u?

i had a fren who played out a player.i mean,2her it felt lk the rite thing2do at dat time.only problem ws,it turned out the guy ws sincere dat tme,with her.no1 expected dat,i mean,players wil alwiz b players.bt the poor bastard fell4her hard,n she tot she ws doin d rite thing by playin him out. then sumtin happened,n she saw the compassionate side of him,a side of him she neva knew. i still rmbr dat nite,i ws standin at my apartment door n she came in tears:

"i tot he ws an asshole sophia,all the stories i heard.n yet he did all dat stuff for those ppl....he does hv a heart.i tot he ws an asshole.i rily tot he ws.wat hv i done sophia,wat hv i done.i tot he ws an asshole.."

that's the difference with guys n gals. gals r softies deep dwn. the closer u get to a person,the more warped ur vision gets,u start seeing the good pts n the goal of this whole elaborate game starts losing it's priority.next thing u noe,u start losing focus.Worst case scenario,u mite fall4d asshole u wr tryin2screw over n end up gettin screwed over instead,AGAIN.

the risks of playin with a persons feelings,u forget that u too r human with feelings. but the tantalizing sweetness of revenge is all too tempting,the having of that kinda power over sum1.

careful who u mess with,if u're not a pro,the whole thing might jz blow up in ur face.is the risk of losing evrytin u had together, worth the satisfaction of making him go thru hell lk how u went thru...?

in this case,im inclined to think so.

too bad u asshole.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Exams n love.

EXAMS.....

It's always ther....they're always haunting us....
n evrytime ther's an exam,here i will be...wasting my time doin sumtin else.... like blogging,eating,sleeping,watching tv...

darn it...i suck.

btw,i went out with sum1 dat day...i noe i noe,im not supposed to...bt it ws an innocent thing.on my part at least....
he's nice,we click,bt i get the feelin he's a bit pretentious,like he's tryin to be sum1 he's not... i duno if he's tryin to impress me ke,he's tryin to hide sumtin ke....duno la...
it's been a long long time since i've went out w sum1....
i duno wat im thinkin...
is it ok to settle dwn with sum1 u dun love bt who's madly in love with u??
i mean,u'll be happier rite? my mom n my dad succeeded.... 4 kids n they're stil goin strong...

wonder how is it like to be with sum1 u're madly in love with...........
isn't it tiring?i mean,aren't u lk alwiz on the edge,wondering if dey rily love u,wondering when r they gonna walk out the door,breakin ur heart into a billion pieces...
i mean,im rily happy n comfortable now,i dun hv to wori abt him leavin me,abt my heart gettin broken cuz i NOE he loves me....n even if he leaves (which he won't) i'll be ok.....

but 1 year 4months later,here i m wondering how it feels like to be in love.....to have, wat sum1 so appropriately put it "sparks"...
im too afraid of falling in love i gues.... im too afraid of sparks,cuz dey cn burn....
i dun wana get burnt...
i'd rather be on the safe side..... PLUS,evry guy i've ever fallen for dusn feel the same way abt me,so wat's the pt of tryin rite? duno la....i mean,if i venture out n put myself out ther,i stand not only to get hurt, i most likely will be snubbed like a million tmes b4 i even get close enuf to feel the 'crazy,madly in love' feeling...

EXAMS alwiz do dis shit to me.... i start thinkin too much abt insignificant n inconsequential stuf..
screw exams,malas la...