Exams n love.

EXAMS.....

It's always ther....they're always haunting us....
n evrytime ther's an exam,here i will be...wasting my time doin sumtin else.... like blogging,eating,sleeping,watching tv...

darn it...i suck.

btw,i went out with sum1 dat day...i noe i noe,im not supposed to...bt it ws an innocent thing.on my part at least....
he's nice,we click,bt i get the feelin he's a bit pretentious,like he's tryin to be sum1 he's not... i duno if he's tryin to impress me ke,he's tryin to hide sumtin ke....duno la...
it's been a long long time since i've went out w sum1....
i duno wat im thinkin...
is it ok to settle dwn with sum1 u dun love bt who's madly in love with u??
i mean,u'll be happier rite? my mom n my dad succeeded.... 4 kids n they're stil goin strong...

wonder how is it like to be with sum1 u're madly in love with...........
isn't it tiring?i mean,aren't u lk alwiz on the edge,wondering if dey rily love u,wondering when r they gonna walk out the door,breakin ur heart into a billion pieces...
i mean,im rily happy n comfortable now,i dun hv to wori abt him leavin me,abt my heart gettin broken cuz i NOE he loves me....n even if he leaves (which he won't) i'll be ok.....

but 1 year 4months later,here i m wondering how it feels like to be in love.....to have, wat sum1 so appropriately put it "sparks"...
im too afraid of falling in love i gues.... im too afraid of sparks,cuz dey cn burn....
i dun wana get burnt...
i'd rather be on the safe side..... PLUS,evry guy i've ever fallen for dusn feel the same way abt me,so wat's the pt of tryin rite? duno la....i mean,if i venture out n put myself out ther,i stand not only to get hurt, i most likely will be snubbed like a million tmes b4 i even get close enuf to feel the 'crazy,madly in love' feeling...

EXAMS alwiz do dis shit to me.... i start thinkin too much abt insignificant n inconsequential stuf..
screw exams,malas la...