I'm back....!

My goodness.....
time flies..no,it SUPER flies...err...
anyway,it's been more than 1 yr since my last post...
i myself can;t believe it.
SO SO SO SO many things hv happened since then n im struggling now to think of a way to summarize it all.....

hmm...

IT'S BEEN CRAZY!!!!!!!!

in this 1 yr...my life hs changed so so so drastically...i dun even noe wat to say!!!
it's rily hard to beliv im now sittin at a cc in jogja w a guy i barely noe typing an entry to my post...
haha...

im so confused....I'M ACTUALLY IN JOGJA!!!
after so so so long of tryin to run......i cant bliv it man...

it's jz so hard to describe the way i feel...
haha....i arrived at jakarta,took a transit n came here...
it's pretty ulu-fied but not as bad as i expected...
sumore it ws my sort of last choice...both me n karen wanted UI (for obvious reasons.....it;s in jakarta man.....!!!).but i guess i was too playful....didn;t study hard enuf.
haha....
thank God for KAREN!!!!!!!!!!!seriously...evrythin i went thru for the past 1 yr...i went thru w her...
bf problem...studies problem....problems of letting go of my past....
then as we settle dwn in jogja,stupid 'orientation' problem....we had this thing call 'OSPEK' which is actually ragging...
in hindsight...it;s not that bad n quite funny...
but last week...God,we wr so so so so so freaking scared!!!
we heard so many horror stories fr ppl bout how dey torture u n humiliate u in front of evry1 else....it was one of the HUGEST decisions i had to make....
4those of u who noe me.....I HATE 2MAKE DECISIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
deciding wat to eat for lunch alrdy sends me into spasms of indecision.....
so felt rily proud of myself dat i made the RIGHT decision to go for that OSPEK thing...
haha...under no obligation...no coercian from any1 else...
no1 influenced me,but i jz sat n tot n tot n tot...goodness..
haha...i've grown up. =P

n the guy sitting nxt to me is reading this n laughing...
damn funny la now....wait la...i;ll get my revenge 1 day.
Gosh,im quite childish.but i dun care...
if i dun b dat now...when am i gonna act like dis rite??when im 28??????
haha....

anyway,back to OSPEK...
so we gathered there la....at the taman medika....
c...here it's called tmn medika...not 'The Medical Garden"...
haha...
EVRYTHING IS IN INDON!!!!!!!argh....it's so difficult when i 1st arrived.
sumore i rily dun like(this is an understatement,of all my languages,i rily hate malay man....)
malay....rily have to throw away my pride,be humble n accept evrything.
but the 1st day v went to a place which sells stuff in bulk....me n karen were SO SO SO IRRITATED!dahlah we were damn tired...we had to buy stuff for a room which we had not seen!!!!how do u do dat rite?wat if the place alrdy has wat u wanna buy...
n in jogja(i dunno bout the rest of indon..)
for 1barang...u have a GAZILLION choices!!!!(talk bout my problem of making decisions....it's like God decided:'since she;s like this...shall send her to a place where she hs to deal w this EVRY SINGLE FREAKIN TIME!!!n then there;s taxi,beca,bus....hv to think sumore which 1 to take...goodness.i shd jz get married n hv kids..settle my headache.hahahahaha.....)

anyway...so so so so many choices....1dumb floor mat took us so so so long 2decide which to buy...

sorry i digressed...
back to OSPEK...
v went for 2days n a nite...which ws quite lucky 4us cuz normally it's 3days 2nites.....
not lucky,God ws in charge...he prob knew me n karen would hv died if it ws 3 days....
goodness knows i almost did...
it was so difficult...being yelled at,n humiliated..(in karen's own words when 4the 1st time since i;ve known her,she cried like shit:" I've NEVER been called shit n pembawa sial n dog b4 in my entire life...."
u know how pissed i was at them for making her cry like dat....God....i swear if i was indian n i was there w her seeing her go thru it....i wud've lost it man....
haha....talk bout a small fry tryin to act macho....as if i could've done much.
anyway,i didn't kena as badly as her....again,God's hand...
i've never never prayed so much b4 in my life...
anyway....
it all turned out well....the seniors wr the most hated ppl in my life b4 OSPEK..
but after it....haha...funny how evrytin can change...
but seriously,we were so damn pissed off.
sumore me n karen had so much 2deal with....our kost(hostels here r called kosts) ws too far...we were tryin to move out...n den the snrs wr scaring us by sayin...u mz greet any1 u tink is a msian-la...or else wil kena during OSPEK..
i felt so fake greetin ppl jz bcoz of OSPEK...haha...
anyway....
evrytin turned out well..
very very hapi here in Jogja.
my main concern was whether i;ll make frens...knowing me....haha.
n i did..n it ws OSPEK dat brought those who went closer together...haha.
we all had stupid names given by the snrs dat we had to use during OSPEK.
n attributes which consisted of newspaper-made hats n tags...
we were made to be like fools who had 2do evrytin dey ordered.
any little mistake we did b4 OSPEK was made into a 'case' n thrown at our faces...
sigh.haha.
but God is good,there ws a snr who called me 2give me assignments 2complete by OSPEK.
he turned out to be quite a nice guy....
rily helped me a lot...haha...
can't blive there;s sum1 who's willing 2help so much...
but he quite immature sumtimes....even though he;s 26 already...
sighh...
haha.

anyway...tired n need to go back cuz my kost's gate closes at 9.30pm...
bye...